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Ratking @ Summerscreen

Back to back killer shows these last two weeks between Ratking and DIIV (sadly no photos.) These guys put on one of the best outdoor shows I’ve ever seen, with a DIY-as-fuck half-broken PA in super smug Williamsburg, no less.

we were young enough to not know enough—those were the days we were gonna miss

Ah, the best collaboration on the record, and probably Miranda’s best feature choice to date. “Smokin’ and Drinkin’” is definitely a different vibe from the first trio of songs, but while a few criticized this sequencing, I actually found it to be a nice respite from how amped up and intense the beginning of the album is. It’s true that Little Big Town have taken on a sort of slickness over their last few records, as the incredible Stephen “Tom” Erlewine pointed out in his review of the album (which I think was one of the best overall), but their second and third records weren’t really like that. 

The Road to Here and A Place to Land were two of the only country records that I could bring myself to listen to in college. See, it’s nice that country is gaining some on the critical front, because for a while, if I told people I liked country they literally would stop taking me seriously. And, for a while, I let myself believe that. In Oregon it was all fine and good–country was part of the pop where I grew up—but once I hit LA I was too sick of being judged to be vocal about how much I loved country music. That even carried over when I moved to New York for the first few years, especially at the company I most recently worked at. If I told people I liked country, they would consider that a discredit of me as a person and certainly of my music taste. It was frustrating to feel like admitting I liked this genre would hold me back. So I kept my mouth shut. 

But even back when it wasn’t directly affecting my career, I wanted to be cool so I only listened to LBT when I was in my car alone driving to and from my shitty summer internship at Target. Let me start by saying "Boondocks" is possibly the best country song of the 2000s, that’s for a different essay though. Even so, "Bring It On Home To Me," "Firebird Fly," "Welcome To The Family," "A Little More You"—these are songs that didn’t make it onto the radio, or at least didn’t achieve the success that LBT needed. Hence, "Pontoon," partying, and commercial success. I love it still, but it’s a departure. Ah well. That’s why I love to hear “Smokin’ and Drinkin’” though because while it has a decidedly Miranda substances-doubling/reminding-of-lovers streak in it (See: "Fastest Girl in Town," "Me and Your Cigarettes") and it feels like the older LBT sound. Their strength has always been in close-knit knock your socks off harmonies, and Lambert does an excellent job of blending her fairly distinctive voice in with their vocal meshwork. For being the big brassy diva that she is, Lambert is also really good at reeling it in, and stepping out of the spotlight—not a lot of leading ladies can pull that off. It’s also really cool that they used the vocoder effects on the vocals here, because it’s such a modern twist on a song that’s very old country song formula and nostalgic. I love that balance and it’s something that she continually does throughout this record. She blends the old and the new in a way that suggests we don’t have to choose, we don’t need to turn this into a binary thing. 

I’ve expressed frustration before with a fetishization of the past that occurs in all music, but of course, it reaches a peak in country music. I think in order to move forward we have to stop making these idiotic distinctions between “authentic” and the “machine” of major label, commercial success. It’s all country music and attempting to sniff out intent is an impossible, backwards-looking task that takes away from the joy of discovering the music that’s being made right now. I’m just as interested in the sounds that are digestible and accessible to the masses as I am the songs that appeal to 100-1,000 people—I think both are worthy. Many critics disagree with me on that. In particular, I was in a discussion with one critic yesterday about the various production styles that Lambert embraces throughout the record. He wrote this off as a flaw in the record, and decried the album’s length. But I see it as strength: Miranda is an artist that appeals to the masses for a lot of her more commercially-oriented production choices that people find accessible. But by pairing songs done in that style with say, a more traditional, extremely musical song with Little Big Town (or even The Time Jumpers for God’s sake!), she’s exposing her audience to stuff they would probably never seek out on their own. It’s an excellent way to honor her heritage without insisting on making music that just doesn’t fit in with the contemporary landscape, and I think she melds the styles effortlessly.

Before I conclude this essay though I want to give a little more time to the song itself. I think the beginning is so peaceful and beautiful, but by placing the drums up so high in the mix and including the shakers it gives the feeling of a crackling, burning fire. This line: “It was one of those times when a real good time felt like a long time ago” is a stunning, painful lyric. Almost every time I have sat around a fire with family and friends, it has been one of the best memories of my life, and when she opens the song with that gap between good times, it hits right where I’m hurting. There’s not really a place for campfires and bonfires in New York City, but at home in Oregon, my parents have one in our fire pit almost every night. None of us kids are home in Oregon anymore—my brother just moved to Alaska, Natalie is in Seattle, Connor is in Philly and I’m here in New York—but drinking wine with them around that fire continues to be one of my most treasured memories. That’s just my connection, I’m willing to bet every person that hears this song has their own. If you don’t, I hope you get to feel that soon. There’s just something about sitting around a fire and fellowshiping with people you love that is irreplaceable. When she goes on about her blue jeans smelling like smoke I’m immediately taken to the day after a fire, smelling smoky clothes or hair and feeling that ache then too. The song rolls on through, bringing a romantic love story to the forefront, but for me, the love story is about my family. There’s some things I’ll never get back, and there’s probably going to be the opportunity to make more memories like that, but I man, when she says “we were young enough to not know enough / those were the days that we’re gonna miss” I want to take back every bad word I ever said about McMinnville.

And it must be a good song if it does that, because that town really does suck.

I know people think this campfire craze in country music songs is just an annoying trope, but it’s not. It’s a special, threshold place that feels like it’s own country in some ways. This song captures the weird sad tantalizing magic of sitting around a fire. For that alone I’d call Platinum a masterpiece.




(Source: carolinegoldfarb, via culturecowboy)

you can’t step to to this backyard swagger

This is easily my favorite song on the record. I can’t believe more people didn’t address it! I devoted practically two whole paragraphs to it in my review and that still didn’t feel like enough.

The song begins with really beautiful, light strings before it builds into the loudest, biggest song on the record. I love the trio of images she uses to build the character right off the bar—big sunglasses, Tony Lamas and Dodge Dark Classic—you immediately get a sense of who this woman is. But again, like on the whole album, she nuances it past just hot girl in love and there’s a sense of dissonance here. He only loves her for these material things? His love is only surface deep? “I’ll be Johnny and you be June / and I’ll ride with you to the moon”—and then the tone immediately changes to aggressive and almost angry, certainly someone has fed her this line before.

But when she offers the reasons he can’t ride in her “little red wagon” the limitations she lists “the front seat’s broken and the axles dragging” have the same tossed off mistruth as “I have to wash my hair.” An alternative reading: this ride is only equipped for one because she’s been hurt and badly busted up in a crash and burn before. Or another, the idea of a beloved but broken down car is a decidedly southern and down home one—you’ll even hear Andre 3000 echoing it in his Future collab "Benz Friends": you don’t leave the car that’s been with you through it all, no matter how rusty and uncool it may be. There’s a million songs about that in country music, I particularly love Dierks Bentley on the subject too.

But this song’s hook is centered around her powerful self-assertion of beauty. I think there’s often the idea that women shouldn’t be proud of how they look. That those who are somehow betray their own sex, or just come off as prideful. But with all the pressures we face to be beautiful and all the ways that the male gaze and our culture dictate that, hearing Miranda own it for herself is empowering. “You know it ain’t my fault when I’m walking jaws drop” she coos, before following it up with over-the-top renditions of “ooohs” and “ahhhs.” It’s campy and vampy enough to hearken back to Dolly & Porter Wagoner variety show antics. On a related note “you can’t step to this backyard swagger” might be my favorite crossover phrase of the country/hip-hop immersion. It’s as close to a gauntlet as we’ll get from the very pro-woman Miranda, while cheekily reminding that she’s queen of the coup. Plus whenever she channels the suburban, working-class implications of where she come from and turns it into a point of pride my heart nearly explodes out of my chest.

I think I get so caught up in the lyrical and cultural implications of this record that I keep forgetting to comment on the impeccable instrumental execution. Miranda hires musicians who enjoy playing, it comes through so clearly—on both “Platinum” and this track especially. In the musicianship, there’s a exuberant abandon that’s tempered with supreme control: the players are channeling that energy from Mirand herself. It comes through like a jolt, like the way this song feels like it’s a wagon careening on a bumpy road with a busted up axle, but it never goes quite off course. The feather-light intro leads into some growling bass and even choral, angelic harmonies—all that get gathered up in her snarled chorus—and then smoothed back out by the dainty “ooohs” and “ahhhs.” The track is overtly country through and through, so that even when synths get sprinkled in, they feel like updates on the classic structure instead of undercutting it.

My favorite part though? “I’ve got long blonde hair, and I play guitar and I go on the road, and I do all the SHIT you want to do.” That kiss off, for me, is tied directly to the song’s overarching direction: at the gravytrainers who want to get in on Miranda’s success, and probably, who try to mock her when she rejects them. The opening lines indicate they only want her for her fame and another closing line “I love my apron / but I ain’t your mama” also make me think it’s geared directly toward man-babies who think she owes them something.

"You’re just trying to slow this rolling stone but I’m onto you, babe."

Here, of course, she’s channeling Dylan-esque lyrics, and I would argue that a few elements in this track seriously remind me of some of Robert Plant’s motifs on his joint project with Alison Krauss. The beginning of this track? Those light strings practically belong on Raising Sand, and her guttural, drawn out “ooohs” channel Plant on that album’s track "Fortune Teller" both in celebration and viciousness. So she’s got traces of Johnny Cash, Bob Dylan and Robert Plant—three of American Music’s greatest outlaws—all mixed into her own rebellion. That’s for everyone who likes to sneer about how they only like old country, or single out only Sturgill etc as good examples of country music nowadays.

None of ya’ll are invited to ride shotgun anyway.


my heels & my hotels they just got taller

Do you realize that even snippets of the female voice are used to degrade us? “Platinum” begins with several clips of women talking in signature female vocal patterns. The snippets are partially obscured but here’s what we do catch: “didn’t really take me seriously,” “eye candy” and later, “I mean it kinda worked for me.” Aside from containing hallmarks modern female speech like uptalk and vocal fry, they also address the way that women are often ignored and disregarded as not serious. I always think of Dolly circa “9-5” when I hear this intro, and it comes from the same place of using perceived weaknesses as hidden strengths.

"What doesn’t kill you only makes you BLONDER" Miranda belts out on the catchy as all hell chorus. Anyone who knows anything about my professional history so far understands why this line brings me to my knees. Brutal blows can reveal to you not only your own strengths and talents, but hone them into the sharpest point, so you can attack the things you really want with aggression. I’ve yet to hear a line that sums that up for me with more spunk and delight, especially as someone who has been in a work environment where failure felt built into gender. The music industry is not a place that welcomes women, in fact, it historically chews them up and spits them out, emotionally, financially and relationally. So when Miranda posits her increase in power in distinctly feminine tropes like hair color, heels and curves, she’s using girly traits as the source of her power instead of arguing that she succeeds in spite of them, they’re how she gains strength. That’s an incredibly powerful argument.

This would be a good place to note that Miranda is happily married to a fellow country superstar, Blake Shelton. While they’re probably about equally successful technically speaking, their bodies of work have come to a similar Beyonce/Jay Z breaking point. Blake may still be commercially successful but Miranda has more than surpassed him in creativity and critical admiration. So while she’s got Blake’s money, she sure as hell doesn’t need it. “My heels and my hotels they just got taller” she notes, jacking herself up, both in a traditionally feminine way (heels) and money/power/status symbol make way (hotels). And you better be believe she highlights that “taller” with a platinum-plated vocal fry squawk that ties in the earlier elements of stereotypical female speech with a gleeful twist of the dagger. 

The kicker here is this line: “When your roots grow out and things go south / hey go back to the salon.” Who do women turn to for comfort when they’re dumped, fired or depressed? Their hairstylist. When things go wrong return to the place traditionally run by women and gay men as a haven for femininity. A place laughed off and glanced at uneasily by men—the same ones who she mentions historically prefer their women with glossy, blonde blow-outs. This is also a direct refutation to the “real men” prefer blondes with curls and curves—yes she’s got em, but not by relying on men or nature to deliver them. She achieved them after losing other battles and coming back stronger, she got em by sheer force of will. She got em just to spite the things that went south (and there’s another brilliant wordplay in this line, given her heritage). “You don’t need to be a fighter honey just go one shade lighter”—you can’t dismantle the patriarchy all by yourself. But with four platinum records to her name it looks like Miranda’s bait-and-switch is working. Excuse me while I go buy some heels online and practice my vocal fry—that’s just as feminist as a goddamn lean-in. * hairflip *

If you think you’re the only thing she wants in this world, then you don’t know nothin about girls



I ran out of room to write everything I wanted to about the Miranda Lambert record, and since the discussions about “music tumblr” have been flickering in and out again, it seemed this was the appropriate medium to take to with the rest of my thoughts. I think Platinum is Miranda’s masterpiece—one of those sneaky, behind-your-back affairs where the feminism and subversion is tucked right into the same package that everything else sounds like so you don’t notice as much. Honestly, that’s what her audience needs because a lot of these women would shy right away from the label like I used to, like Shailene Woodly did, etc etc. There’s a plethora of ways to express femininity, not all of them fit into feminism, and the whole point of feminism was supposed to be so that women didn’t have to behave in any enforced way. It was a philosophy built upon the novel idea that women could express themselves in any way they wanted! It’s just as misogynistic and hateful to police the behavior of women into fitting into your trendy-ass feminist viewpoint, why? BECAUSE NOT ALL WOMEN WANT THAT.

Anyway, back to Miranda.

1. “Girls”
They say women buy the most country albums, which is part of the reason the chart lopsidedness has been so puzzling.
Platinum is an album written for women, and attempting to discuss it with several men has only driven this point home for me. “Imagine a fighter with a centerfold face” is the opening line of “Girls,” and indeed, the whole record. She sets up the perfect woman by balancing the idealized physical qualities of both genders: strength and beauty. This is what women are expected to have, they’re expected to look flawless and be able to hang with the dudes too, never taking offensive or showing emotion in a world that’s saddled to buck them off.

But then, the picture gets more detailed. This isn’t a woman who is in it to earn a man’s attention and get out of the ring. “If you think you’re the only thing that she wants in this world / then you don’t know nothin about girls.” In the rest of the world women, at best, are still fighting for equal pay and respect in their fields. In the context of the traditional, religious and conservative pockets of America though, they’re still fighting against a prevailing attitude that they have concerns stretching farther than relationships at all. I say this over and over again, but unless you’ve lived in a town full of astonishingly brilliant ballerinas, actresses, singers, writers, activists, math whizzes and athletes, and seen them all—nearly all of them!—settle for the post-high school ring, family and supermarket job, then you won’t realize how this line sticks in my craw. Until you’re nearly the only one you know, somehow scrapping something together in New York City and you’ve seen the jealousy, hopelessness and awe in their eyes, sorry but you don’t won’t can’t get this. You don’t know nothin about girls. I know Miranda has seen those eyes too, and this song seems to be especially for them. Or what about “An overachiever even she don’t believe her own gain”? That point is hammered home when you’re watching someone you know had the same skill and potential as you tied down in your hometown forever.

I still consider myself to be an extremely spiritual person, and while I have love for a lot of church people, it’s largely the religious institutions that continue to enforce this  role for women with flawed virginity narratives and esoteric, antiquated rhetoric about ‘submitting to your husband.’ Hence, “still loves her daddy but changes her name”—one is passed down and one is chosen, but both are titles, status symbols designated by dominant male figures in a girl’s life. There’s only so far Miranda can go to subvert this narrative without seriously injuring her career, just look at the Dixie Chicks or Brad Paisley if you don’t believe me, but I think she touches on it again in “Another Sunday in the South.” She asserts that drinking beer on a porch swing is doing a lot more for yourself than sitting in a pew. And that doesn’t even mean that the hallelujahs, the joy and spirituality, aren’t found right there on the porch in the shared fellowship and relationship!

Even while she’s questioning these relationships in the chorus, the verses reaffirm a woman’s power to love and her strength to keep her own opinions all without being completely fulfilled by it, while still longing for more. “Imagine your best friend and your worst enemy / begs you to stay and then wishes you’d leave.” That line, to me, isn’t about a girl with her *lol* “messed up emotional swings”—it’s about the patriarchy. I can be the most in love I’ve ever been and still feel the deep disconnect and divide between what I get and what men get, what my man gets. I can be prouder than all hell of what he accomplishes and still wish it could’ve been me. I can still want to spend time watching “Chopped” with my favorite person and wonder what I would’ve accomplished if he’d leave and I was alone. 


"Like Marilyn Monroe she can be who you want her to be" is a testament to our inner, chameleon ability, not a nod to the male gaze. Which of course ties into the pre-chorus "Go on go on, give her everything and more / love her all you want—she was never yours." Society literally teaches men that women belong to them, that they deserve our attention and our bodies, and that we should willingly fulfill their needs and neglect our own. But whether you’re our best friend or our worst enemy we don’t belong to you! From the extremes of wedding vows to assault, we still maintain our individualism and identities. This song assert that. Of all the songs on the record, this one (and "Little Red Wagon" which I’ll get to later) both evoke the same overtones for me as Nicki’s fierce, deadly "Lookin Ass N——." I saw a few male critics hoping “Girls” would gun into the same spirited overdrive that “Lookin Ass” nails, and yes, undoubtedly Nicki is beating men at their own game of brash, boisterous posturing. But this song isn’t meant to do that. It’s curly and loops in intricate, slower circles like tying a bow. It’s for late night sleepover emotions and the deeper, quiet strength of womanhood. It’s for the girls.

sharon van etten & the reality of sadness


i don’t think we talk enough about sadness in our culture, other than as something that we try desperately to avoid. there’s plenty of narratives that portray relationships as the end all be all, or white knights who never fuck up and forget your plans, or miss their deadline and can’t hang out with you, or are just plain tired and want to be alone. there’s no one talking about the ways that relationships are both of our faults when we mess up, or that sometimes the person you love hurts you and it isn’t purposeful we’re just human.

for so many songwriters and so many narratives it seems to be one or the other; either i am a perfect person who has been Ruined by an Awful Otheror i am oh so fucked up that i drove away my only one good shot at love yadda yadda yadda. i love this sharon record because i think she takes as much responsibility for her mistakes and her own little pools of sadness without wallowing in them and without blaming herself. she just as easily paints the flaws of her loved ones and partners without ever vilifying them. i wish for more albums in general that address sadness with the frequency and constant that it is in our lives, without demonizing it or fetishizing it. we’re not there yet. sharon’s our start. here’s my review of her new record are we there (no ? seems like a purposeful semiotic reinforcement of our lack of arrival, no?)



When I was a freshman, my sister was in eighth grade. There was a boy in two of her periods who would ask her out every single day. (Third and seventh period, if I remember correctly.) All day during third and seventh she would repeatedly tell him no. She didn’t beat around the bush, she didn’t lie and say she was taken—she just said no.

One day, in third period, after being rejected several times, he said; “I have a gun in my locker. If you don’t say yes, I am going to shoot you in seventh.”

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